Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Dodged a bullet!

Well, the lump on the boob that I mentioned a little while ago, has gone. Which is good. I still have an appointment with the endocrinologist to talk about my ability to metabolise sugar at a shocking rate, at which time they were going to also do an ultrasound in lieu of a painful mammogram, so I'm not sure if they'll still want to do that, but since my white blood count came back normal, it will probably be chalked up to a blocked duct. Thank God!

Going through a scare like that on my own was frightening!

Monday, July 7, 2014

Bitter Sweet.... Revenge?

They say it's best served cold.

Today has been a rough day on me. Today my brats leave me to fly to Illinois and spend 11 days with their grandfather, my dad. Who has not spent more than a couple of hours in their presence for the last I-don't-know-how-many-years.

So it's bitter, because I have not spent more than  a couple of days, 5 at the most without at least one of my children. Last year, I had a week without Baby Girl, while she was in Georgia with my uncle, but it was just barely a week before the boys came back from their dad's. I'm panicking for several reasons:

My dad is not a young man anymore and hasn't had to deal with two high-energy little boys like mine.
Baby Girl is an enigma and reminds me so much of myself at that age, they may bump heads.
There have been severe storms, including tornadoes in that part of the country for several days now.

It's sweet because I get some much needed 'alone time'. I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself as I seem to have a dwindling number of friends, but after the last year or two of stress, the doctors are now insisting that I do something for me to get it under control. So while being the support mechanism for everyone else is admirable, it was apparently detrimental to my own health and well-being. How quickly people forget what you do for them.

I digress, but that's been quite a painful sore point for me the last 6 months.

It's revenge, because, well, my dad volunteered to have my kids for two weeks. My teen years spent with him were not great, so foisting my delightful children on him for a period of 11 days (I'm not really counting...), will maybe help illuminate just how quiet and well-behaved I was... Straight A's and captain of almost all the girl's sports teams as well as a school and district record holder.... And yet I was never quite as awesome as my sister in his eyes....

Oh Revenge is sweet, but I'll still miss the Brats :'(